It’s been about 2 months since I packed up all my crap into two suitcases and flew clear across the world to call a new country home. For some reason, I feel like I’ve been here longer but at the same time, it also feels like these first few months have flown by.
So, Thailand… have I ever been here?? Nope. Did I know anyone prior to moving here?? Nope. A lot of researching, googling, youtubing, blog reading got me here. Would you say I’m a little crazy? Maybe. But I know for a fact that, even if it doesn’t work out here… I can say that I at least tried. I hate living life with regrets. It would be a shame to look down the road and think to myself… “I wish I had done that when I was younger…” Coulda, woulda, shoulda right? Nope. So, I vowed to myself that I would do whatever I wanted to do in life as long as I had the means.
People seem to have a lot of questions when they find out I moved here by myself without a real plan.
“How long do you plan on staying here?” …. – I don’t know.
“What are you going to do after?” …. – I don’t know.
“Where will you go after?” …. – I don’t know.
I truly don’t know what my plan after this will be. I can’t tell you what I will be doing or where I will be next year or in two years or in five. What I can tell you is that I had no reason not to do this.
I won’t sugar coat things… it is scary. Having all of my close friends and family clear across the other side of the world is unsettling. I feel lonely at times. The first few weeks are the worst. An emotional roller coaster of all sorts. Wondering if I had made the right decision… missing my comfortable bed, missing my favorite American comfort foods, thinking “I really sold my car?!? (my baby)”…and so on and so on… but then I think to myself… yes, there are things that I’ll miss, things that brought me comfort. But, that’s just it… I don’t want to live just comfortably. I want to push myself and see and do things that most people won’t or can’t do because of sheer fear. I won’t let fear and doubt keep me from experiencing everything that this amazing world outside of our “bubble”, has to offer.
My advice to anyone who is feeling like they need a change in their lives… Do it! But only YOU can decide to change your life or you can continue being “comfortable”. Change is scary and it is not easy. If it was easy everyone would be able to do it… but it is possible. Get out there, get out of your bubble and test yourself in any and every way that takes you out of your comfort zone. If you never try…. you’ll never know. We are all far more capable of doing things than we give ourselves credit for.
Be brave and go live.